To Dream or to Sleep

At the moment it seems as if I have three states of being. Either I am dreaming of a life I do not have, I am living the life I do lead or I sleep. I am not sure what my dream job/life would be like. It comes in so many permutations. They are  never the same and I am not sure if I would be able to recognise it if it came a long in real life. I had the dream of moving to another country, of changing jobs and of moving house but in the end I stay the way I am un-changed. I set myself a challenge and I am just moving a long. I think it is time I did shake it up. Hopefully traveling will soon help ( a couple of weekend breaks) together with a re-introduction to the world of George R.R. Martin and I think it will be fine. The most important thing is to get through the coming weeks. And then I might just follow up on one of my dreams. I think I owe it to myself at least. 

And just yesterday, I did make a small change I became more active in a field which holds my interest but in which I feel unsure on how to proceed. It is the field of political activisicm. I always followed the news and felt connected to protesters, but I never joined them. But yesterday the film by Innocent Children Inc. moved me into action. I know that there is a lot of backlash. And I agree that some of their financial tactics sound dodgy. However, the stated goal of their film is making people aware of this truely evil person that has walked free from his crimes for 25 years. He and his ilk have traumatised so many and killed even more. They made him a household name for at least 10 milion people, a name that cannot be forgotton. So yes, maybe some of those dollars that I donated will be used to pay for a exuberant salary for a chairperson of that organisation, and no, I do not agree with that. However, if my impulsive action ensured that even one child will be save from that degenerate than it was worth it. I just hope that my small contribution and that of others  will stop this from happening in Uganda. And I know that in his speech on www.TED.com  Peter Diamandis was talking about this kind of reporting, when he mentioned fear mongering and distorting our vision of the world...but in this instance I will let it happen...because it might help....and yes at least it is not fear of the possibility of African Killer Bees....I am still waiting for those by the way... maybe they are less scary than the sparkly vampires.....